As I get older, I find myself praising the version of me that has survived until now

I was really bad at studying,
my life was a complete mess,
my health wasn't great,
and I wasn't very bright.
But in the end, I've managed to survive as a self-employed business owner from 2009 until now....
While signing the contract for a new car today,
I had a whirlwind of emotions thinking, "I can't believe I'm buying a car like this" (though it's mostly a bank car since it's all on a loan ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ).
Seeing the cars that doctors and entrepreneurs around me drive,
I realized just how much my ambitions have grown, haha.
Since I'm in my late 40s and living alone, I wanted to live a life where I could enjoy things moderately, so I pushed myself a bit.
Nevertheless, I feel proud of myself for surviving this far
and being in a financial position where I even have the courage (?) to buy this. hehehe