Come to think of it, no matter how much success or recognition I achieve, what's the point if I don't have my own people by my side?

I guess I've been feeling quite sentimental lately.
A thought suddenly occurred to me.
Not too long ago, I used to think,
"If I succeed and get recognized, won't that fill my self-esteem and make me happy?"
That's what I used to believe..
But lately, I've been suddenly feeling
that what's the point of all that,,
even if I succeed and get recognized,
if I don't have my own people by my side,
it will all feel empty.
In reality, there is no one around me.
I don't know why
I've been having so many thoughts lately.
It's not even like I'm that old,
but no matter what I do, I lack the passion I used to have,
nothing is fun, and I wonder what the point is.
And if I just stay at home,
I get even more lost in thought,
so even if I don't do anything outside,
I just head out for now..
Whether it's to the office or anywhere else..
I wonder why it's like this. Lately, I feel
a certain heaviness in my chest.